well my freinds this past weekend was a disaster, my top plays on saturday were 4-0, and my top sunday plays were 3-1,and i lost money ,go figure. first of all let me tell you i'm so freakin sick about it right now, i feel like jumping off 31st street bridge here in pittsburgh, however that would be incredibly selfish to the two people who love me most in life , my wife and, daughter.especially when they know that this {handicapping@poker} is all i know ,and is my livelyhood.alright i'll start off by explaining that i am a player who works week to week ,kind of like someone working a job paycheck to paycheck.this means that my bankroll isnt always big, so i am constantly creating ,and building bank up online ,then cashing out ,then i go play in vegas, or if in pittsburgh i'll shoot down w.v to beat up the donkeys on poker table,i have been succesful keeping my head above water doing this ,putting food on the table ,roof over my familys head,etc.however my travel ,and living exspenses can get high enough that,i mess too much with my capital, and back to square one i am.o.k my 2 biggest mistakes this weekend were i loved to 3pt underdogs on sat @ sun ,on saturday it was oklahoma ,what i did was i bet them on money line for 50% of my bankroll, we all no they covered ,but i did not cash because the short dog did not win the game, i came back with n.d and kentucky, but do to panicking i  some how managed to squander away more money by hooking those to up with some losers on parleys and teasers, so then here comes sunday ,and i idenify one game that i absolutly would love to hammer, the saints, kudos to those who checked out my thread prior to this game where i predicted saints@over, also at 1 i liked the rams and the ravens, you think after the oklahoma game i ould of learned my lesson about taking the short dog on the moneyline but i didnt i again lost on the ravens because i only took them on the ml, in a game whwer they fought to come back but an idiot kicker couldnt make a field goal. with that said i get all my money back after 1:00 games ,now it is halftime at 4:00 games ,and i go crazy i take some winners, and i got a couple clunkers namely the jets in the 2nd half {thanks mark sanchez} after sweating out ne 2nd half under like a true degenarate i am again even. now im thinking to myself even???im pissed off for the way the week went i need a quick double up, so what do i do, well i get to studying the bears ,falcon game and i come up with the theroy that it will be a back and forth affair that will be to close to call, so i decide to teaz chicago up to 10 and take over 40 i usually dont make bets like this ,but in this spot i thought i was right, i made this bet for 75% of bank, i then bet the rest of my bank on stupid ass prop total bets on the baseball game and football game which were so bad i dont even remember ,they were basically dead when the game started, and then the bears showed about as much disipline making penalties and turnovers as i did managing my bankroll,now i find myself sharing this blog ,feeling like shit today,and oh by the way i'm looking for a job to help out ,which sucks because even if i do find one it wont be over 9 bucks an hour ,since i have a poor work history, do to me hustling since age 13. well gentelman i hope you enjoyed this story